Moving on

I have been seeing a life coach (wow, how new age of me...) to help me with my life style change (read - diet) for the last 6 weeks. I know I have long had issues with food. Some connected with childhood abuse and some with long standing misconceptions. While I have finally gotten the food thing down and lost 29 pounds (yea me!) I still "run to comfort food" when stressed. So I started talking about the stress brought on by moving to NC, a crazy MIL who wants to run my life and the painful loss of family. I am at a loss when she wants me to consider moving away without my husband.

I just find that so impossible to consider. Make a list of pros and cons, she says. Why? Why can't she help me find ways to understand this new place, new way of life without cutting and running? It seems because that's what she is doing. She is in the midst of a divorce and she just told me she's moving to Florida in 6 weeks. So I guess she thinks this is the only way. I just can't see it that way. Ok, maybe I wish a quick demise for the MIL (hey, she's old and had her life) but I am smart enough to understand moving back to Portland will not make me happy. In fact, if I went without Joe it would probably push me over the edge. It's obvious to me that the family and friends I thought lived for me and I lived for them have moved on. You really can't go home again. Especially when there is no home to go to.

Joe has made me a home. In so many ways, he has been there when no one else has. He reads my thoughts, finishes my sentences and worries about my health. And yes, he pisses me off, keeps the dang seat up and has the weirdest eating habits known to man.

Joe and I want to move to Oregon. We are going to talk about it and if we decide, it will be together. There is nothing wrong with standing by your man. Especially when he stands by you.